Thursday, December 27, 2007

Humans no more!!!

We are no better than the animals..No, let's not even insult them by comparing them to us..Atleast they don't kill their own..not like we do..To satisfy the needs of power and superiority, we have stooped to levels noone knew existed..In the name of religion , of filthy politics, of fundamentalism of every subject imaginable except the basic fundamentals of life itself...for what reason? to achieve what end?

We have lost it..No, not the brains..So all you scientists can sit back..We have taken leaps and bounds in improving skills and knowledge and knowhow..to what? i'm not really sure..

What we have lost is what gave us our identity some ages back..the thing called "humanity"...

Remember?

Sunday, December 23, 2007

The stepping stones...

I'm tired.And blissfully so.


The last time i climbed those hills was when i was still young and a few kilos less.And that was when i was still running and exercising and would never tire.Now it's a totally different story.

Anyways that isn't what this is about.

It was a trip planned for Virag and Joseph.It's a pleasure showing them around. When there's a pair of new eyes that see your country, your villages and your small world, it's like looking at all of it for the first time for you too.


After a week long 'Perspective Building Workshop" we went over to our school.After we hand painted a five hundred and a few more cards with those tiny palms and were all coloured in bright colours - pink,red, yellow, orange, blue and green, off we went strutting to the Juang village near the school and spent some lovely quiet hours just sitting at the porch of those lovely huts of the even lovelier Juang people..getting drenched it moonlight and finding our way back through the narrow lanes of the village with just that light above..It was lovely..the bright moon..the village and the people..The funniest part was when i asked the driver to switch off the lights and drive on our way back to Keonjhar after that nocturnal walk. I could sense he was totally apprehensive but what choice did the poor guy have? Once i realised he wasn't going more than a snail's pace with the lights switched off ,more so because he was scared than the real danger in it, i asked him to switch it back on..Ok there was no road that could be called one and was more a few small and big rocks piled on to give the impression..but haven't we been there zillion times already? i thought we could drive through those jungles blindfolded and there was this huge moon , almost full, shining down as if the sun had given it the power-of-attorney for a day..

If that was,'t tiring enough, i invited V and J to go on a trek..Sunday, a few friends, a hill beckoning and a trip that was begging to be taken since the stars appeared in the sky..


So there we were..all geared up, the water bottles and a heavy breakfast..Oh yes..really heavy..it being a Sunday and with J-2 and M also coming over, mom made those lovely idlis only she can make with that mean side dish of coconut and groundnut chutney , sambhar and pudina chutney to accompany.. All those who know me know that i'm a foodie but when it comes to south-indian food prepared at home-you won't find a worse sucker for it that yours truly.By the way J-2, weighing 35 kilos when you're already in your twenties and a waist size of twenty isn't really a thing to boast about..Please add a few kilos to that skeleton you carry everywhere before you vanish into thin air..The complex you give me is not to be mentioned either..And M, J and V asked me if R was your daughter..So you know what to do..


Oh..back to my track..er..trek..the ground rule when you go for a trek is never start with a full stomach..and mine was not only heavy but would have fallen off if i wasn't blessed with a flat one, not-genetically. As we started and had only walked about two kilometers i was panting like a dog..And we had still not reached the foot of the hills yet..

And guess what? Today being a Sunday and the week of picnics around this part of the world there were about a thousand people who had decided to chose our destination as their's too..The only difference was they came loaded in buses and jeeps and cars..and we were on foot..taking the road not taken..atleast not by the civilised folk....And we were stared at like we had just escaped from a zoo..Ok we made at unlikely team..two whites and one a shade of brown...But they could at least hide their incredulity till we passed them. I swear i had fight back the urge to go and put their tongues back safely to where they belonged and clip their lips more than a dozen of times..

We started on the trek through the winding footpath made since ages of travel by the people who live up in those hills. And we met quite a few of them..It was a rush today because of the weekly "haat" or market, which is where all the economics , sociology and history happened for all those people..And what took the cake was they had cattle accompanying them in those roads broad enough only to let one person pass at a time and filled with huge rocks and stones smoothed down with years of walking on them..it was quite slippery and a slip would mean a fall of quite a feet and at least a dozen broken bones and scratches..No..you wouldn't really die because the foliage is too thick and would break your fall..

The tribal people were far more decent than the "civilised" ones..There smiles were more genuine and curiosity more to know about the people rather than act "oh-i-see-foreigners-all-the-time-and-they-are-so-common" and ogle at them like it was just the opposite.


After walking for almost an hour through those meandering roads and gaining altitude with every step, we came upon the lake all of a sudden..It was breathtaking..in more ways than one..we were taking in air by gallons...and the view was magical..But that's about it..in the scene which ideally should have been accompanied by a soft rippling of water and the sound of the waterfall had about four different music systems bellowing at just below the 20 k decibels mark..and all those songs which made no sense at all..On second thoughts they did..but you'd have to have a knack for lewd double-meaning lyrics to understand them as well as a love for loud hammering that's a combination of hard metal and war drums..

When we reached the fall Joseph went into it like a fish which had been kept captive on land against his wishes..There he was..swimming and getting freezed in the water that made our feet numb..that's about the part of our bodies we managed to wet..

In the meanwhile we had visits from hundreds of the picnic-errs...staring at us as if that wasn't what they were really doing..Some overgrown teenagers beyond their teens did start to act smart, like most of them usually do..behaving worse than animals in jungles..making remarks that violate the basic rights of any human..that of dignity and respect..what with the social networking sites they virtually live in..they think everything goes...for them, it isn't real people and real feelings..i don't blame them either..It's what we get from too much exposure to all things western and yet not understanding where the rights of your freedom end and where you start encroaching the space of someone else..Seems stupid but they need to understand that watching almost naked women gyrating in music videos is one thing but expecting every woman to dress like that in real life is a different matter altogether..and all the while i was thinking about Virag who took pains to dress according to Indian sensibilities and her whole reason of coming to India was to find the inner beauty that we Indians supposedly are endowed with loads of..

As we came back there a bunch of students who came running for photographs..Virag and Joseph said they faced it all the while in India at tourist places where people wanted to take pictures with them..Joseph said he was really cool with hanging just above the fireplace as a prize certificate in the drawing rooms of the thousands of households..He also said he should actually start asking for money in return of pictures like every baba and shopkeeper did when he wanted one and save on a few rupees..

So..there..We came back through those hills..meeting those tribals again..some drunk beyond their senses and totally oblivious to the world and doing and saying things which had me in splits..and some did make sense..their anger against the civilised world which had the best of everything and yet never spared a thought about the elephants that ate their crops, the poverty they live in..oh let's forget that for a while..We also manage effectively to leave behind the plastic cups and bags and loads of garbage after we have had our picnic..for them to clean..It's their waterfall..their lake..but when have we ever spared a thought??

We were finally back..totally tired from the day of walking and climbing those hills..and those stones i stepped today were all worth the effort..because i learnt some things our books forget to teach...

Merry Chrismas!!!

Merry Chrismas..

:)

Tuesday, December 18, 2007

A chapter closed...

a chapter's closed
well..almost..

a year of memories
some to be cherished
and some forgotton
well..almost..

a fistful of friends
some gathered
and some gone forever
well..almost..

a few moments lived
to be sipped
alongwith that hot coffee
on a lazy afternoon
etched on the coffee mug
well..almost..

a chapter of experiences typed and set
to be printed in the life's press
someday someday
when all chapters are done
yes..all done...

Monday, December 10, 2007

"Mora silate naahin.."

The first time i met Putli was about two years back.

Seven years old then and already a bread winner of the family..She had one of those faces which hold you mesmerised for heaven knows what reason. Like the pull of an unseen magnet, like a moment already familiar before it actually happens.

I was on my field tour. After the regular monitoring and feedback sessions from the field functionaries were done and after i had visited a few households of that interior village in the hearts of the jungles and hills of Keonjhar i still had some time with me.

Like anyone in that place you too would have been captivated by the rawness of the beauty of those hills, the chilly winters, the villages with thatched houses, every household barely hiding a tale behind the broken walled the meticulously put up torn saree and every face, a hypnotizing story.

Putli was the eldest of the five siblings, two boys and three girls. Barely seven and her day started much before the day did. She would wake up before the break of dawn and clean her home and clean the dirty utensils from the day before. And some days there is also vomit to clean, the outcome of too much or too bad country liquor consumed by both her parents. Her parents work in the local mines and whatever earning they have gets over before they get home.

Putli's work for the day is then to gather firewood from the forests and finish her daily ablutions (if it can be called that. A leisurely munch at a twig, a rushed answer to nature's call and a quick dip in the dirty ice cold pond). After she comes back, she cooks the first and sometimes the last meal of the day. In between she also manages to fetch water from an open well which is about two kilometers away from her house. (The tubewell is lying broken since five days after it was dug up , which was more than two years ago). She then cleans her siblings and by then her parents are also ready to go off to the quarry. She then dishes out portions for everyone. Most of the days it is only rice and salt and some days they have a feast of a few tomatoes and potatoes boiled or toasted in the fire.

Her daily schedule after her parents are off to work is pretty much the same. She picks Mahua flowers (Mahula or Mahua is a flower which is used as a main constituent for fermentation of alcohol), dries them and meticulously carries them home.On one of my following visits, each sibling had a container-Putli ,the eldest, carrying a broken bucket of lubricant picked from somewhere, the one younger was carrying a cut out engine oil container, and it kept growing smaller till the youngest one was carrying a broken plastic mug. They were all picking up Mahua flowers. Just for record, the youngest one wasn't walking yet. Putli put him down under a Mahua tree and he picked all flowers he could lay hands on and filled his mug with glee, his prize for the day and his contribution for his share of rice.



If it isn't Mahua season, they pick Sal leaves. Or sometimes it is "Jhuna" or frankincense. And all these products are sold in the local weekly haat which fetches their weekly ration of rice and salt. The products they collect from the jungle change according to season but the routine doesn't. Except for the rainy season. During rains the younger ones mostly keep indoors and the elder ones work as labourers in the local rice fields.

These children have probably not worn a dress newly bought since ages, the ones they have are hand-me-downs, tattered and torn. During the winters an empty sack of potatoes bought for four rupees from the local shopkeeper doubles up as a blanket and a shawl depending on the time of the day. 

These children don't go to school though there is one at a stone's throw..

Our Government makes numerous policies and laws on providing compulsory primary education for every child, basic health and sanitation facility to every human being and no labour by children that somehow remains in the books of those who make the laws, never read or understood by the people it is meant for. 

This isn't only her story..There are millions like her..On one hand i know she'll never probably be able to read this but i have a hope that maybe someday her children will..or maybe her grand children.

Incedentally, 'Putli' is oriya can mean two things - a doll or a statue...

The first time i met her, i asked her.."Why don't you go to school..

She answered.."mora silate naahin.." { I don't have a slate }

Wednesday, December 5, 2007

My conversations with myself...

If you're looking for your ego to be massaged
please look elsewhere..
i don't even find time to massage mine
and sure as the sun in the sky
i suffer from a superiority complex
Big Time!!!

if you're trying to hurt me
a brilliant suggestion
spare the effort
i can only be hurt by people i love
and people i love
will do everything
to keep me away from it

if you are out to scare me..
it'll just be a funny little joke
my worst fears have come true
there's nothing left to fear

if you're trying to show off
and put on airs
i can do a better job
just that i find it's better
kept locked in an attic
or a basement
to be done in once in a while
if you really have the itch
with one person - yourself

if you think you're disappointed in me
sorry to to disappoint you again
i only returned the compliment..

if you think i'm rude
as far as i'm concerned-
Mission Accomplished

if you ever think i've hurt you
that's your life's biggest misconception
because i honestly accept
to hurt someone i love
is beyond my list of capabilities

Camera Rolling, ACTION!!!

So you thought it was easy to remember those lines you are supposed to say, look at the camera as if it was your best friend, be totally conscious not to look so, say the lines with the proper intonation and infliction and yet look as if you were born with a camera on you..

just change sides..

Saturday, December 1, 2007

Invisible Weaver!!!

the days weave in and out of each other
promising a new design
at the end of every day
invisible hands of the weaver
make a pattern
some you can find
and chuckle
and say "That's Life"


And then the rest is still a puzzle
to be deciphered
only by the weaver who weaves
the designs not in any book
but all in his mastermind
all a part of the master's plan
and every piece spun out in unique

and days weave in and out
in the hands of the invisible weaver...

Know AIDS for No AIDS

Ok..that might seem a done to death line to you..but it still holds true..

World AIDS DAY-December 1

This post is for all people out there in the world who are living with HIV/AIDS.

This one time , i'll let the numbers do the speaking...;

Number of people living with HIV in 2007
Total 33.2 million [30.6–36.1 million]
Adults 30.8 million [28.2–33.6 million]
Women 15.4 million [13.9–16.6 million]
Children under 15 years 2.5 million [2.2–2.6 million]

People newly infected with HIV in 2007
Total 2.5 million [1.8–4.1 million]
Adults 2.1 million [1.4–3.6 million]
Children under 15 years 420 000 [350 000–540 000]

AIDS deaths in 2007
Total 2.1 million [1.9–2.4 million]
Adults 1.7 million [1.6–2.1 million]
Children under 15 years 330 000 [310 000–380 000]

And guess what? None of them invited the disease..

And there was only one cure : Awareness.

There are still a lot of myths and misconceptions attached to HIV/AIDS. And we can make a difference in only one way..Spread the awareness in as many people as we can..

What is worse is that now besides the disease the people living with AIDS have to face a worse scenario-That of the stigma and being ostracised by the society.

Let us help them live a healthy life and one filled with love and care.

Just for the record, try imagining a world without those 34 million people who are in every sphere of the society. They still have a lot to contribute to our world, socially, emotionally, economically and just as human beings.. Let's help them do it.

* data from UNAIDS-Dec 2007