My pink umbrella

good bye my pink umbrella

hope you are fine wherever you are

like many things in my life
i left you behind
my careless self

then i just moved on
like i always do
to other, important things

missing you
only when it rains
and sometime too sunny
i just wish you're taken good care of

i sometimes blame myself
when i think of you
of not remembering you
to have left you behind

why did i not heed my fears

that i would lose you one day
of not seeing you till the end

of not being with you
when you grew old with me
of not given you the care
that you deserved
at the time of need

i cared for you cosmetically
not because of you
but because of myself
you enhanced me
by being with me
and so i preened
in your beauty

now that you're gone
i sometimes miss you
good bye my umbrella

hope your finder is not an ogre
hope you live long
hope you grow old
as dignified as you're now

hope your new keeper
loves you
more than i did
i say keeper
because you cannot be owned
you're free, you're your own
you help, without asking
you give, without taking

good bye my pink umbrella
fare you well

1000 reasons to get married...

Looks like there's only one thing there's left to do in my life!!

Get MARRIED!!

Get married!!!???For the sake of whoever's up there!!!...Am i looking that desperate or good-for-nothing or ..well..desperate's the right word again..

All moms and Dads..Please don't take offense..none is meant..But i'm freaking scared of going anywhere now..Anywhere i go i'm asked one question in million different ways.."So, when are you tying the knot?" "To tum ek se do kab ho rahi ho"{wasn't marriage supposed to be other way round?}, "When is the party?"...It's freaking..really..

Last week i went to the mall..And there were those lovely clothes for kids..nowadays they have such beautiful collection for the kids you feel like becoming one..and i was looking at those with wistful eyes..and guess what i get to hear from my family..Yeah..you guessed right..

I usually don't go to weddings..i don't like the stuffy feeling and plastic smiles..i run away from those at the speed of light unless it's someone close "tying the knot"..So i went to this cousin's wedding who incidentally is younger to me...right from the moment i stepped in the Mandapam till the moment i came out..oh yes..the same question..

"You're looking beautiful..it is because it's your age to get married..".

"This Saree is nice..Why did you wear it..you should keep atleast a hunndred new sarees for your wedding.."

"Oh Lord, The rates of gold have sky-rocketed..we should have bought some more jewellery last month"

Ouch. As if i'll ever wear the jewellery already enough to adorn two showrooms..As if i've nothing better to do than buy sarees for my wedding..As if getting married is the only reason i was born on this earth for..

My mom blackmailed me into making copies of my photographs and my bio-data with horoscope..thee are so many copies, i'm sure i could easily have printed pamphlets and saved on the bulk order..i also opened an id on bharatmatrimony..and guess what??my mailbox is flooded with mails and i've finally spammed it..

It's difficult being a woman,i tell you..it is..i never thought i would say this..but i am..Looks like finding your soulmate figures nowhere in the 1000 reasons to get married...